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so you probably read the title

But yk

Tw for sexual harassment, just sexual things in general, If you don’t wanna read about me being sad about my body and whatever you don’t need to 🙏


Anywho


I’ve just been eaten up inside by all this guilt, I was in a sucky ass situation where I was sexually harassed for months. I was stuck, I couldn’t get out of the situation like I wanted to because I was afraid I would disappoint/make the person who was harassing me sad. I just wanted positive attention. I did so many things for them just to make them happy that I didn’t want to to, they made me do so many gross ass things. They’ve completely trashed the way I perceive myself and my mental health. I need to wear baggy clothes to hide my body fear of being sexualized, I can’t stand to look at myself below the shoulders, and I break down or get extremely worked up/anxious If I ever get horny or decide to “touch myself.” I’m just sad all the time because of It, there’s a lot of guilt always hanging over me like a rain cloud. I feel trashy, I want a healthy relationship with myself and my body again.

Also please, PLEASE do not sexualize (or make creepy/strange remarks) me or my ocs under any circumstances unless I’ve stated I’m comfortable

And do not vent on this. do not. 😀
This shit has been slowly destroying me and i haven’t had the courage to say anything for months, this isn’t about you or your experiences right now.

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